Mother’s Day #1

I got a new camera lens for Mother’s Day along with a salad spinner ( my request) and a bouquet of flowers.

I spent the car trip home from Lubbock playing with my new lens, capturing images of J-Dub driving, EK sleeping, Ashy posing, and maybe an accidental shot of the dials on the dashboard.

Afterwards I reviewed the pictures on my camera and found myself scrolling back. Farther and farther back, on this first Mother’s Day, back through the weeks and months. All the way back to January 28th at 4:20 when the doctor tugged a crying baby from my bulging abdomen after a very long and difficult labor that ended with a C-section.

Then my precious, post term, 7 lb baby was whisked to the NICU where the premature, sick babies go.  The place where I was told when I could touch my baby, that I couldn’t nurse my baby, and where I felt completely helpless.

My heart is so tender remembering that day. I feel anger and I feel sadness all rolled together in a snowball of grief.

As I scroll back through the photos, I’m so thankful to remember.
To remember how tiny she was, how different her hair laid, how red the little mark on her nose appeared, how wrinkled her skinny little fingers were.

Oh my goodness how I love her.

How I miss her tiny newborn self.

How fortunate I am to have her.

Although I can’t take all the credit, being her mom is the best thing I’ve ever done, the greatest gift I’ve ever been given, the most important job I’ll ever have.

To all the mothers out there…….I finally get it.

And it’s incredible.


  1. Donna Mae Jones says:

    yes it is and she is a blessed little gal…


    1. Angel says:

      Thanks Donna!


  2. Marie says:

    You bring tears to my eyes! I am so blessed to know you and so happy that Emma has such an amazing mom, of coarse it helps that she is so wonderful herself! I hope your Mother’s Day was wonderful!


    1. Angel says:

      That is some of the sweetest words ever. Thank you!! I love you!


  3. Connie says:

    We all knew you would “get it”. 😉


  4. WOW!! What a super great post!!


    1. Angel says:

      Thanks! I had trouble writing it. It made me so mad to think back to the troubles we both had.


  5. Donna H. says:

    So beautiful, Angel, and so very true! It is so amazing that God’s plan for each of us often comes as a surprise and molds us into someone we couldn’t fathom ourselves being, until it happens! She is such a precious gift, and she will continue to enrich your lives beyond your wildest comprehension! I just spent Mother’s Day with my daughter, my sons, and ALL my grandchildren and great grandbabies!! I could not feel more blessed than I do at this moment! Until next time … Donna H.


    1. Angel says:

      I’m glad you got to be with all your “kids” this Mother’s Day!


  6. Lenore Diane says:

    Angel, I continue to be so happy and excited for you. I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day. The pictures are great!


    1. Angel says:

      I hope your Mother’s DAy was great too!


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